When my daughter Sania passed, I was lost in grief.

I’m still in it — grief doesn’t go away — but I’ve learned how to let the highs and lows exist at the same time. I think that’s the only reason I’ve been able to keep going. That and my tendency to search for beauty, even in pain.

Most days, that looks like my morning routine:

Soft music from my intentionally curated playlist.

The scent of eucalyptus in the air.

A gentle reminder on the wall that simply says “Inhale / Exhale.”

It grounds me when memories of Sania feel especially heavy.

It reminds me to stay rooted.

Because everything I’ve done since becoming her mother has been just that — rooted.

Rooted in kindness.

Rooted in love.

Rooted in intention.

That’s what she inspired in me.

When she was just three years old and we were navigating digestive issues, I changed her entire diet — and changed mine too. It taught me that what we feed our bodies matters.

That shift eventually led to another one — learning to embrace my natural curls and leave chemical treatments behind.

Her life gave me the reason to love myself better, so I could love her well.

And when she passed, I stopped drinking alcohol altogether — not out of willpower, but because I didn’t want to numb the pain. I wanted to feel it, honor it, and heal it.

Let me tell you about Sani Auri, the name behind everything I do.

Named after my daughter Sania Auriana, Sani Auri is a company built on legacy.

And if I’m being honest — holding onto a brand created to give her the loving care she deserved while navigating life without her… it’s been hard.

I’ve questioned everything:

Should I keep the name?

Should I change it?

Should I dissolve the company entirely?

The first year after she passed was unbearable.

Year two? Somehow even harder.

Now, in year three… it’s still hard — but it’s also softer.

The grief has started to take shape as something else:

Legacy.

A legacy rooted in love.

A legacy rooted in care.

A legacy I now get to extend to others.

It’s the kind of space I wish existed when I was younger.

And now… it’s here — quietly becoming a home for others too.

Sani Auri is where so many beautiful things will live:

Curls.

Care.

Joy.

Wellness.

Wholeness.

This is just the beginning — and I’d love to have you with me from the start.

If you’re not already following along → @SaniAuri on Instagram is where I’ll be sharing updates, new launches, and everyday softness. Come be part of it.

Because this isn’t just a brand.

It’s a becoming — and you’re invited.